I need to stop reading. Seriously. On a lonely Friday night, I decided to google search Truvia, the "natural" sweetener. Which led me to search Splenda. Which led me to search raw sugar. Which led me to search sugar. Which put me in diabetic shock and if not for feeling a wetness in my pants (I'm menstrating... perv) I may have been succumb by sweetener related overdose. All I have learned is that reading makes me fearful of putting anything in my body. Hmm, or maybe the lesson I should take from this is that reading about the terribleness of food will help with the tiny problem I have... eating EVERYTHING.
I have already given up on losing weight this week. I am clinging to maintaining my weight. But very realistic to the possibility of gaining. All of this because of a little thing we womyn (yes, I went there!) like to call a period. Higher powers are clearly punishing me. Why, after not having a period for a year... A YEAR... am I having my first one week 2 of starting a weight loss program. WHY?!?!?!
After feeling pretty glum about myself this evening, I have not reached for food, yet. I have however cheated and visited ESPN.com. I'm kind of a sports addict so ESPN is like the mother ship of crack for me. I was doing so well too. :(
I'm still Facebook and Twitter free and my boyfriend will soon be home bearing gifts of Tampax Pearls. The day will come soon for a happy stomach and vagina.
